Rosh Hashanah, the Jewish new year, begins tonight. I always spend the days before Rosh Hashanah in reflection. It starts off with remembering the past year and all that I've done...or all that I haven't done. I have that struggle that most probably have...Yes, I am super thankful that I am who I am. I am so thankful to have a higher power to believe in and with whom I can reach inward to feel a connection. BUT, what have I done to show my thankfulness and to strengthen that connection? That's when I start thinking back farther than just this year. And then...I get stuck in reflection mode...as in, I'll start looking at my old high school notes, old middle school journals, and even older family photos. I found this one this weekend:
Yup, that's me (Chaya) and Shaindy acting silly together. This picture brought me back to reflecting on this past year. We just celebrated our first full year of working together on Project 6. We've grown so much as sisters, as humans, and as a team. We can tell what the other is thinking before they are even thinking it! A year ago, we didn't know what to expect. We had those same thoughts we are having right now before the High Holidays... "What did we do to deserve this "amazingness"? I didn't pray enough, forgive enough, thank enough, etc enough, so why is G-d giving this opportunity to me?" I'm sure I'm not the only one that struggles with thoughts like these, right?? But thoughts like those aren't the healthiest, that's why the High Holidays only comes once a year. We have a designated amount of time to Reflect. Repent. And then Release.
And that's the message that I am going to focus on this year. We might not have been the best humans possible, but we will acknowledge that. We will repent for that. We will even make commitments to do better in the future. And then, we will release the negative thoughts about ourselves, so that we can actually work on being better people. Reflect. Repent. Release. Don't forget that 3rd step!
Project 6 wishes you a sweet new year filled with love, happiness, peace, inspiration, growth, success, health, and all the blessings in the entire world.
Shaindy & Chaya
Project 6 NY